Test Grading

21 days already?

I felt so relax today after texting with a sister that far away from me. She used to be my listener for every single problem I had. She always be there when I needed. She always gave her support when am feeling so down. She keep encouraging me although I have limit knowledge in Islamic studies. But she always believe, that I have my own strength to handle anykind moment. The most important thing, she is the only person knew my whole problem from my personal life until my dakwah life.

I told her that my holidays are not in best state. I don't think am enjoying my 4 months holiday very much. Sometimes felt very-very-very angry with government cause it torturing me living in this house and do nothing. There were something I shared about my life at home, at Segamat, and what was happening to me at this moment. There are good and bad. She remind me to endure all difficulties with patience and don't easily give up. It just somekind of test to grade your iman.

Seorang daie tidak boleh bertindak mengikut perasaan apabila ditimpakan musibah yang sangat berat dan menyakitkan. Allah sentiasa menyuruh kita bersabar dengan ujian-Nya, kerana ujian itu datangnya daripada-Nya dan Dia jugalah tempat kita kembalikan rayuan.

Yes, I've planned something for UiTM. Didn't know whether this gonna work or not. Still in the middle of collecting some names that can be grouped in several numbers. Allah, I am Your servant, You are my Savior. Satukan hati-hati kami Ya Allah Yang Maha Mendengar.

Kalau sebelum ni menggunakan teknik DF asyik tak berjalan (mungkin kelemahan adik-adik yang masih baru dan diri sendiri yang masih baru masuk juga), I decided to do something else. We're gonna do both in one time. Usrah jalan DF pun jalan. Tak payah DF dulu, baru nak usrah. Mungkin ada orang kata takkan menjadi since yang akan terikat hati itulah yang bersedia untuk diusrahkan. In my situation, maybe we need to make it different. Takkan kita dah gagal plan A kita masih berkeras nak menggunakan plan A juga. Kita cubalah plan B pula, berkesan atau tidak. Kita cuba dulu. Semester lepas cuba cara DF, so semester ni kita cuba cara lain pula. We need to be creative.

Ok. I should stop now. Still thinking.

Selamat mengejar malam 1000 bulan.

Kalau ikut perkiraan Imam Ghazali malam tadi adalah malam bertuah. Wallahualam. Yang penting, carilah sepanjang 10 hari ini.